Wednesday, August 24, 2022 5:15 PM
Unconditional love is something that I didn’t fully understand until the last couple of years. When I was a little girl, my heart felt deep love towards family members and friends. I was very naive and gentle and didn’t understand whenever anyone did things that made me hesitate and somewhat shut down. Unfortunately, through childhood wounds and adult traumas, I slowly closed my heart and put barriers up.
Little did I know that my journey in recent years would allow forgiveness of past actions by those who hurt me from childhood and into my adulthood. It wasn’t an easy process. If I hadn’t been able to fully release deep emotional scarring, I wouldn’t have been able to transition back to unconditional love, which is what God wants us to freely give to others. The walls that took almost 50 years to build took me three full months to tear down.
Something I didn’t understand until this year is that I must also forgive myself for things I’ve done, words I’ve said, actions that I took. I’ll be honest, I’m still working through that part of my journey. It is far easier to forgive others than forgive myself. Lessons have been learned, but I still work through the cobwebs that remain in my soul. Why is it that?
Even after you think that you have forgiven everyone that has injured you, it seems like someone pulls the bandaid off and hurts you. Someone that I didn’t expect to hurt me, that I didn’t write about in my book, after my forgiveness hurt me. I lashed out and it took almost a year for me to have forgiveness towards him and the situation. I had to swallow more of my pride a few months ago. It wasn’t easy to say I’m sorry, but I did it. The relationship has healed and I’m grateful.
What I can tell you is that once you forgive, it opens your heart to unconditional love. I still have work to do on myself. Forgiveness is necessary to heal. It doesn’t mean forgetting what happened, but establishing healthy barriers. I feel that it’s necessary in my Twin Flame journey. We all have our own journeys, but when true forgiveness is in your heart, peace can be found.
In love and His light,